You don't realize how attached you were to something until you start to let go.
I'm trying to find a middle ground...
Somewhere in my excitement over my accomplishment,
Nervousness for now and fear of what's ahead.
I should be happy. I am happy.
I see people I know. They were now family.
Tears cloud my eyes as I make my way up.
Every color around me suddenly brings back a sweet memory.
And the hole in my chest when I realize its all over.
This is it.
After today, it all changes.
And then it comes down to these last few steps.
I feel everyone of them.
Everything around me starts to fade.
All I can hear are my own breaths,
And these last few steps.
And all so faintly,
I hear them.
These strangers, that grew to love me.
Screaming, cheering, my name.
I see us. I see fun, I see laughter, I see comfort.
I see love.
I look up. I smile. I smile when I think of you.
I receive my victory, I say thank you to you.
Thank you for my life.
Thank you for making me so lucky....
...Thank you for my life.
I look her in the eye. My new found strength.
I take what's mine.
I earned it.
I made it!